A moment lasts all of a second, but the memory lives on forever. ..

It’s somehow nice to reminisce the past especially the happy moments you have shared with that person. You never expected a lot of things. That you’ll care about each other so much and you rather choose to hide things just to avoid hurting each other. But why is it the time you give your complete trust to him, the same time he’ll broke it and finds out that he’s the one hurting you even more? If he seems to be the person you care about a lot, now it turns out to be that he’s the person you don’t want to talk about! Is there still a way to bring back those moments that you have with each other? NO!!! They say you can never turn back time anymore. It’s so sad to think that I really missed it, even though we act so immature at that time and with eve those child acts. He seems to be my second brother; the person who turns out to be one of the most important people who really did brought joy to my life. He’s my refuge. He defends me; the person who makes me feels that I’m someone special in this world. I taught that level of relationship would just be in “sister-brother” relationship but everything change as each day pass by. I started to feel awkward whenever he makes “lambing” to me. But every time that he’s not around, I just got to miss that absence. It’s like no one’s bugging me at all. He’s the type of person who is fond of teasing people, a very happy person. People try to call him “annoying”. I once did too not knowing that I hurt him at that time. It’s just so funny and weird that I missed it so much. The person I used to call “honey”…(that’s what we call each other. because we’re really so close…no meaning at all!!!) I regretted the day I rejected him. I told him that I never felt the same way he feel for me. I used to stop those feelings that I feel for him since from the very beginning because I’m afraid to lose our friendship. I hated him; the time he confessed that he loves me. How can he do that to me? So, he mean, all the sweet affection I’m showing to him bears a meaning for him? How can you not hate the person whom you give your complete trust would just betray you after all? I taught then that he is really selfish. He’s not thinking what will I feel. But I was wrong! I realized from that experience that I’m the one being selfish. Instead, I’m the one not thinking at all. Whenever our eyes meet, I just pretend not seeing him for I can’t stand the site of him together. All I did was just to tell a lie. I never was true to my feelings for him. Coz I’m just so afraid…afraid of everything!

Now everything’s too late for us. All I can do now is correct the mistakes I’ve done in my past. Well I guess, we’ve set ourselves free since then and now here I am again…loving!… I hope I would do the right thing now. One thing’s really for sure for us to be happy, we just have to take off our mask!!!