HOW CAN I EARN BACK YOUR TRUST?
I miss the way we were. I wish with all my heart that there was some way that we could go back to the days where your eyes beheld me as the most beautiful woman you had ever seen, when your heart felt lighter in my presence, when the thought of me kept you warm on a cold night. I still feel this way about you.I know that I am the one to blame for letting that light in your eyes die. I know that I messed up, that the things that I did were wrong, and I wish that there were something that I could do to go back in time and change them. I know what it's like to be hurt the way that I have hurt you. It hurt me to see the pain that I caused and not be able to do anything to make it better. What can I do for you to forgive me, to let me into your heart again, to earn back your trust and once again feel the fullness of your love?
I look back on all that I took for granted, and I only wish that I had appreciated it, and I know that if I had that back, I would work to keep it. I wouldn't push it away like I did then. I would ask in every moment of the radiance of your love. I want a chance to love you the right way, but I need you to let me in. The distance between us tears at my heart. It is there even when I am in your arms. Yes, I have suffered for my sins, the greatest suffering I have ever known: feeling as if I have lost you and your love. I am asking that you forgive me.
We've decided to stay together, I'm glad of that, but what I really want is the chance to do it right, to make it stronger and better than it ever was. I want the chance to prove that I've changed, that I can be trustworthy, honest, open, giving, and understanding. I know I have a lot to do before I earn back that trust, but I'd like the chance to try. Love is what makes the difficult easy, and the impossible possible. I know that I am asking for the impossible- to be forgiven.
I look at you now with new eyes. I have a new appreciation for the wonderful things about you that once I took for granted, and the beauty of a face that reflects both the man I love and my most loyal and dearest friend. No longer can I take you for granted, you are too important to me, too precious on every level; my best friend, the man I love; the one whose heart I once held in my hands. If only I had treated it right then, I know that I would hold it still.
The words of a song keep floating through my head, "could have been a perfect love? I’m still trying. I know you’ve lost your faith in me, now I’m crying." Even though you are in my arms, I know that you don't trust me with your heart and it hurts me.
I look back on all that I took for granted, and I only wish that I had appreciated it, and I know that if I had that back, I would work to keep it. I wouldn't push it away like I did then. I would ask in every moment of the radiance of your love. I want a chance to love you the right way, but I need you to let me in. The distance between us tears at my heart. It is there even when I am in your arms. Yes, I have suffered for my sins, the greatest suffering I have ever known: feeling as if I have lost you and your love. I am asking that you forgive me.
We've decided to stay together, I'm glad of that, but what I really want is the chance to do it right, to make it stronger and better than it ever was. I want the chance to prove that I've changed, that I can be trustworthy, honest, open, giving, and understanding. I know I have a lot to do before I earn back that trust, but I'd like the chance to try. Love is what makes the difficult easy, and the impossible possible. I know that I am asking for the impossible- to be forgiven.
I look at you now with new eyes. I have a new appreciation for the wonderful things about you that once I took for granted, and the beauty of a face that reflects both the man I love and my most loyal and dearest friend. No longer can I take you for granted, you are too important to me, too precious on every level; my best friend, the man I love; the one whose heart I once held in my hands. If only I had treated it right then, I know that I would hold it still.
The words of a song keep floating through my head, "could have been a perfect love? I’m still trying. I know you’ve lost your faith in me, now I’m crying." Even though you are in my arms, I know that you don't trust me with your heart and it hurts me.
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