Let's forget the storm, please!!!!!!

“You are so full of wisdom about life that when you speak it really makes me think that I could stay there forever just to listen to your open mind, for it is peaceful and inviting. You have become my awakening; you have helped me see things in a brighter way, in a happier, enlightening way. For I was once drowning from my own fears, completely cynical about love, about hope and security. I used to think that no one understood me and could ever. Then one day before I knew you personally, you flew into my thoughts and at that moment though I wasn't truly sure why you were there. Suddenly I felt reassured and a smile was brought to my heart. Somehow I believe deep down I knew I loved you then.

I know I don't tell you that I love you, but as the days go by, my love for you grows, and each day I thank God that I have you in my life. I know I get mad and upset. It is because my heart is so strong in love with you it scares me so. All I want is to take us away, away from the pain and just to share what we have with each other.

We have both gone through so much in our lives; we've both been hurt and have lost trust in others, but I ask you to give me a chance as I give you one. I don't ask for much, only for you to love me as I am and not to hurt me as I would not hurt you. I only wish to be by your side and with no one else.

There are many things in life that people wish for such as: cars, big houses, great jobs and more. All I want in my life is you and your love. We have been through storms and back into the light over and over again, and right now we are back in the storm. Through the many years and great days we've spent with each other, my love for you have continued to grow and grow. Right now all I want you to know is my love for you will never die. Let's step back into the light... I love you.”

Storms will always be a part in our life. Maybe, it is to test our faith and strength to God, to the people and even to ourselves. You maybe drown from your own fears, cynical about love, about hope and security and you think that no one will understand you and could ever. Until now, even though I really love this person, I still have doubts here in my heart. I still have those things which I hide from him. OHHH!!! That thing above is dedicated for him. You’ll surely know him because of course; he’s the only man in my life. *hehehe*…I made that sort of “letter” thing for him because I know I can’t say it straight to his face. *heheheh*…I just hope it will work out. I just hope he’s not mad at me anymore. I hope everything’s going to be fine again…=;(

A moment lasts all of a second, but the memory lives on forever. ..

It’s somehow nice to reminisce the past especially the happy moments you have shared with that person. You never expected a lot of things. That you’ll care about each other so much and you rather choose to hide things just to avoid hurting each other. But why is it the time you give your complete trust to him, the same time he’ll broke it and finds out that he’s the one hurting you even more? If he seems to be the person you care about a lot, now it turns out to be that he’s the person you don’t want to talk about! Is there still a way to bring back those moments that you have with each other? NO!!! They say you can never turn back time anymore. It’s so sad to think that I really missed it, even though we act so immature at that time and with eve those child acts. He seems to be my second brother; the person who turns out to be one of the most important people who really did brought joy to my life. He’s my refuge. He defends me; the person who makes me feels that I’m someone special in this world. I taught that level of relationship would just be in “sister-brother” relationship but everything change as each day pass by. I started to feel awkward whenever he makes “lambing” to me. But every time that he’s not around, I just got to miss that absence. It’s like no one’s bugging me at all. He’s the type of person who is fond of teasing people, a very happy person. People try to call him “annoying”. I once did too not knowing that I hurt him at that time. It’s just so funny and weird that I missed it so much. The person I used to call “honey”…(that’s what we call each other. because we’re really so close…no meaning at all!!!) I regretted the day I rejected him. I told him that I never felt the same way he feel for me. I used to stop those feelings that I feel for him since from the very beginning because I’m afraid to lose our friendship. I hated him; the time he confessed that he loves me. How can he do that to me? So, he mean, all the sweet affection I’m showing to him bears a meaning for him? How can you not hate the person whom you give your complete trust would just betray you after all? I taught then that he is really selfish. He’s not thinking what will I feel. But I was wrong! I realized from that experience that I’m the one being selfish. Instead, I’m the one not thinking at all. Whenever our eyes meet, I just pretend not seeing him for I can’t stand the site of him together. All I did was just to tell a lie. I never was true to my feelings for him. Coz I’m just so afraid…afraid of everything!

Now everything’s too late for us. All I can do now is correct the mistakes I’ve done in my past. Well I guess, we’ve set ourselves free since then and now here I am again…loving!… I hope I would do the right thing now. One thing’s really for sure for us to be happy, we just have to take off our mask!!!

WhAt A UP sTuDenT is nOt!

People say a lot about this school,the University of the Philippines. A very famous and one of the prestigious school in the Philippines. People have known it as an academic school for smart, intelligent and talented students. I was so lucky to have the opportunity to study here though I find it hard sometimes. Being already in almost three years here, I proved some of the
things wrong that people is saying about being a UPian...We maybe the one who start the trend like being involved in rallies, or debates in our society and by that, people thinks that we are rebellious. Is there something wrong of giving our opinions? I mean, all people have their own rights. They even have their decissions in life , so how can they say that we are contumacious of things we don't even connected to? I remember the very time when I used to be one of the applicants piling up my required documents for the UPHSAT or the UP Highschool Admission Test. When my mom's a bit discourage about this school and having doubts if she should apply me here. Because as what she heard about people's feedbacks, your child may became disobedient and obstinate because UPians are given so much freedoms to express their selves. And it's so wrong for me. Parents maybe concern about their child, the way they are taught in school, the way they should become more educated but It's really up to us.
If we students should deserve the title "Iskolar ng Bayan". If we'll be the kind of "role-model" students who always start a good thing. People just say a lot of things. University of the Philippines is a school for worthy, deserving but under privilage students and because of that people say that we are rude, that we are still ignorant about things. Yup, maybe, we doesn't know a lot about social people and how to deal with them but Is there anything wrong with that? We admit it. We're not that students they are expecting just being here in UP, we have to be the greatest and smartest of all. It matters nothing for us because we all know
that being in UP is the greatest already, that we can be somehow proud of ourselves. Well, as the matter of fact, our parents sent us to this school just to be more educated about things and learn about all things. We can never blame all people who are trying to say negative things about being a UPian.These topics I'm talking about is just some of the people's opinions. As what I've said, all people have their own opinion in life, and we can't change it because they choose to believe in it. Now...all we just have to do is prove to this people that what they are saying is wrong! They doesn't know what it takes to be a UP student. Rude, disobedient, disloyal, rebellious????That's what a real UP student is not!

my sister, my friend...

"God made us sisters, our hearts made us friends. Love keeps us bonded thru thick and thru thin.Being family gives permanent ties, for which I am grateful to be in your life. Though our paths may lead down separate roads,God gave us each other to help with the load.God had a great plan, as He always does. Growing together was the best for us.I can't imagine my life without you. Sisters are for keeps and forever true.”

The relationship of friendship is not only restricted to the friendship that exists between fellow mates, but this beautiful relationship of friendship also exists between siblings, between parents and children, between grandparents and grandchildren and among other people who are related to one another in some way. A sister is one, who defends you, scolds you, if you have done something wrong, wipe away your tears and would be there with you always.Having a sister is like having a best friend you can't get rid of. You know whatever you do, they'll still be there. My sister’s name is Anna Mae. I used to call her Ate Anne, a listener, conspirator, a counselor and a sharer of delights. And sorrows too. That’s what I describe her. I consider my sister one of my best friends. In spite of all, she’s been always there for me: pleasures or frustrations in my life. She shelters me from all the rainy seasons in this life and always listens to all those stuffs that I want to share. Sometimes, we find our sisters annoying, isn’t it? Most especially in household chores!!!!*heheheh*
My sister and I differ in a lot of things, maybe not physically because a lot of people ask about if we are twins.*hehehe*...My sister is one of the people I idolizes a lot. I can say that she is really strong. She can handle things easily while I’m not. She can say what she wants to say but me? I tried to hide those things most especially if I'll hurt other people. Maybe she just got a lot of pride because ever since, I never saw my sister quit in this game of life. She may cry but after that? Here she goes again, as if nothing happens. What really makes me believe her is She’s real. She is a very tough person. It’s really hard to survive in this world but she is always trying. She’s a fighter. A fighter that tries to fight life and even destiny and it is where I saw her weaknesses. My sister is really my best friend. “She is my mirror shining back at me with a world of possibilities.” She knows if I’m smiling even in the dark. That’s my sister and I’m really proud of her!


"Sisters are different. They heard the sobbing in the darkness.
They lived through all your triumphs, all your favorites,
all your loves and losses. They have no delusions.
They lived with you too long.
And so, when you achieve some victory, friends are delighted -
but sisters hold your hands in silence and shine with happiness.
For they know the cost.”

Emotions behind the dance floor!!!!

“Dance is the hidden language of soul”

Ever since I was a little kid, I always join dancing competitions. Every place I go, music has always been with me. Well, what kind of person who doesn’t like music at all?
What do people really say about dancing? Doing those craziest and latest dance moves? Well, for me it’s different. I dance. I dance with all those things behind me because dancing has always been a way for me to be out of myself. Life for me is like dancing....
You just got to go with the right timing. There are times in life that you’ve been left alone, it’s like there’s no one you can reach out for, right? Sometimes people just got a lot of pride, they’re ahead of the beat. In every dance step, there are those steps that you cannot easily get. Same in my life, there are things around me that I couldn’t understand. You need to prepare yourself for any problem you may encounter. In dancing, you have to practice a lot more. We can never avoid mistakes in life. “No ones perfect”. We commit those mistakes even though we don’t want these things to happen. Every mistake in dancing, you’ll be out of the timing. You don’t know what’s the next then.

Dancing is the truest expression of people behind their back. We may try to hide everything but movements never lie. Learning to dance gives you the greatest freedom of all: to express with your whole self the person of who you are. Same with life, dancing seems to appear glamorous, easy and delight. But the thoughts behind it? It’s not easier than any other. Your body cries even in its sleep. Dancing seems to be the other half of my life. Thousands of emotions well up inside me throughout the day. Dancing’s the only way for me to let those feelings out. Because the physical language is more powerful than words.

Dance Moves? Every moves matter. In every mistake you did, in every wrong decision, that may change everything. Dance like there’s no one watching! You have to live life to the fullest for you can never bring back the time anymore. Always do the best of your moves. No matter how hard life is…. no matter how cruel and unfair it is, in some ways it test our faith and strength.

It’s just so funny to think how I can really dance with the beat of music but I just couldn’t deal with this playful life. I’m still not that strong enough. I easily carried away by what people say about me. But all I can do now? I just have to be true to myself. Well we can never please people.

I experience different kinds of dance with different meanings they want to give. One thing’s I’m really sure about, While I dance, I cannot judge, I cannot hate, I cannot separate myself from life. I can only be the happiest person and express those emotions behind.

“That’s why I dance!”